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I'm sad. I've been sad for a while now. I lost a huge part of my life. It's gone.
I want someone to care about so that I can stop thinking about myself.
Seeing happy couples cuddling in public nearly brings me to tears. Writing these words has the same effect.
It's a lousy feeling when you care so much about someone who doesn't know how to love another.
And no matter how much I say or how eloquently I try to say it, she'll never understand; she'll never care as much as she lead me to believe she did.
Slowly, slowly, I'm chasing her memory from my conscious mind (though not a day, or hour goes by without her passing through my brain), but she still invades my unconscious -- she haunts my dreams with happiness that we'll never again share.....
Now I must sleep. Please, stay out of my dreams. It hurts so much.