Another conversation about my stagnation here at home, my potential, my mistake, my value to society, etc. Yes, I do wonder about my future. It's not all fun and games for me. I'm cursed (and blessed) with severe introspection -- of course I've thought about these things. But I've yet to reach any conclusion. I wonder how many of us do reach a conclusion. I look forward to tomorrow, but after that, everything is hazy.
The haze burns off only moments before I'm forced to confront whatever monster or angel leaps into focus. I can cross my fingers and hope for an angel, or I can wipe my eyes, removing the nebulous barrier to clear understanding.
Does any of this make sense?