Yes, I'm aware that the last post is dripping with negativity and anger. In an ideal world, perhaps I'd let bygones be bygones and not say a word about how I feel. But for the last few months, I've been living through this crazy, turbulent relationship because I always thought things could get better (someday?). I was wrong. And that hurts.
Having someone very close to me turn out to be a liar hurts a lot more.
Even though I'm sure I'll miss lee lee after a while just as much as she'll have moved on from me, wishing for an impossible future does no good.
And if I wasn't still sick, I'd probably be doing something more fun or productive than sitting here blogging and stewing.